The Great I AM

My Lord my God, how can I just forget you? Your love is like no other, I shall not love any as I do you.

You stir my heart to be closer to you and to love you more, I'm not happy without you Lord, even your Word shows me.

My heart is in ache to even think that someone that does not know you as I do take your place.

My desire is for you Lord, your great love, for me to be drawn closer to you, Lord I know you as you do me.

Mine heart I thought I needed else on this earth but non compare to you Jesus, You know so much more than they.

Today I was told we both believed the same, but we do not, we both know God but he does not, he called you a religion and you are not.

Jesus you are the Great I Am, You are the Lion and the Lamb, You raise people from the dead, You speak and the animals listen.

You whisper and we know and feel, You love and we fall to our knees, You are truley the true and everlasting God.

Surely there would be a reason for me and you have showed me, I shall not disobey you Lord I will do as you say.

Why when people say that it was man that wrote your Word? Yet they do not know they can't fathom your power through the Bible.

You show your great wonders everyday, answered prays, life through a precious life, it is not trash.

They mock you Lord in this country and around the world both day and night, they do not fear you Lord, why can't they see you are great.

I was in a thrift store and there layed a gideon Bible, on the side one wrote non-fiction, how that hurt mine heart.

It put fear in me for those who do not know you Jesus, for them to say that of you is a daeth sentence for them.

I heard a woman say that she wants to be above God himself in a mans life, why, oh why, do they say foolish things?

Oh have mercy on them Lord God for they do not know, for I know forever more who you are, you have defeated the devil.

Even the devil can't raise people from the dead.

My cry

Oh this self that is heartbroken, why must I feel this way, why is the flesh so weak to not know.

Why do we think that we need when we do not, it's not enough it's not enough to be in this flow.

I feel such a failure to not look at the Lord for the comforts that He hath in store.

So much more love than we would ever know, to know that He would be the main one that we can afford.

Number one, first on the list to feel so comforted and loved, depending on Him for all we go through.

I need Him to seek His Word again to know and pray daily upon Him, this self it wants what it wants.

For I shall not, I shall not because it gets me no comforts or great love that is above, but the flesh haunts.

I will pray to God to thank Him always no matter what, He is to remain, though the darts are to be hurled.

I will make haste to my God and keep Him close, He is faithful and just to make me strong to keep me from evil of this world.

Oh does my heart break to be in this flesh that feels all the time, whether it be the smallest thing.

Why can't I remain to be the strong woman, the kind mother to care for her young, oh let my heart sing.

Oh Lord my God take me again, to be who you want me to be, take my hand and show me.

Oh Jesus Lord and Savior hearken my heart to be like your heart with love and help me to see.

Bless my little ones they are still young, look upon them with your power and grace.

Let them grow with your love and help them to do what your will is, place your love upon their face.

Thank you for your guidance and love, your grace and mercy to take this burden, this yolk within me.

Take me and mold me, take me and love me lead me to what you want me to see.

You are God and a big God you are my God and I shall follow you all of my days.

This I say to live is sweet, but to die is gain and I shall live by your ways.

This woman

What is it to be this way off on the trail of life to take in the Lord and then receive then we forget?

I sought the Lord and prayed to Him, then He answered so great with out any fret.

Now that I am comfortable again what have I done for Him? What a dismay I am to not go on in love with Him?

When the time comes in our lives to be in despair we seek and pray to only get what we ask for but we then feel dim.

I need Him daily no matter what, no matter how I feel for any other, I do not want to lose the sight of my Lord.

At this moment I feel and need the comforts of hands that belong to man, I am ashamed to feel this way something I cannot afford.

This flesh that I have is so weak to dream and need a man that mesmerizes me, oh this self be strong to know that you need be not weak.

I can, I can overcome this girlish feeling that has despaired me into a frail broke woman, this I need to find in me the meek.

This is the woman I am strong but weak, humble and meek, tested and tried.

For this I can say to myself take heed look at the wings of eagle and live that way till you have died.

The Lord showed me

I am thine oh Lord and I have thy voice and it said thy Word to me.

Oh that it be thine Word to me, it was today the precious Word was spoke for all to see.

What a day that I had not known for so long to see the fire and passion in one for our Lord

That is the Lord God that puts His awsomeness in those that desire Him so, so easy to afford.

My spirit was stirred and moved so strong knowing all along that He loves me no matter what.

I had asked Him this past week what is it you want from me? To me my heart was at a cut.

He showed me it's not of thine self my precious one, did you forget me?

It hurt to hear what He revealed to me, at that moment once again I see.

Materialistic things that make me turn away even when I thought, "na that can't be".

When it was that I was fading far from Him, showing me the revelent Him to me.

I asked Him in anger, "what do want from me?" "What in the world, are you not there?"

But He was all along was there to see me through all the frustration that I bare.

Yet He says let Me take that burden that you carry, let me take that yoke from you my dearest one.

I am here with my open arms, did you forget I gave my only begotten son?

Now take what I showed you and take to all to see and hear don't worry I am there.

For my Word says go and tell the good news so they burden no more because I care.

That is all I ask of thee, forget all this and that, the possession of this world.

My Word says again I shall remind you, because you are lead.

This world all can and will fade away but my Word will never be faded or destroyed as I have said.

So now then wipe your tears and go fourth in my Name and win the lost I have come for.

Because I will be continually and always be knocking at their door.

I was sleeping and the Lord awoke me to write more of Him and His will.

I had a talk to my cousin today and we converse on the subject of God, on that what to fulfill.

So we talked of how we worship the same God, I know I worship the one and only God.

For this I say is not to punch but to only say that my Lord asks nothing more from us, is that odd?

My Lord does not ask, "here, spend this and that to worship me", "to get your pray answered do this so it will be?"

NO, He does not ask that of me.

So why do they say they worship the same God? When we do not.

For his Word plainly says and this is so easy to do, come as you are, for in our life is the plot.

So easy to do, I can say that I was born a sinner and I will die a sinner, but I was given grace.

You ask what grace is this? Why it is the grace from God through Jesus Christ, I surely embrace.

Jesus Christ was sent to earth to die not for me but all that have sinned and fallen short to the glory of God.

Then in that, we were by Him Jesus Christ, through His Blood we were bought, to me is not odd.

I know that I am not prefect in any way at all, I know that I have to pray daily for forgiveness of my sins.

You too can have this, this gift so free, no expense to give and you can live each day know'n it wins.

Why all you have to do is pray the simple sinners prayer, acknowledging Him as your Lord and Savior.

You probably thinking what is all this is a wierd and odd behavior?

I assure you that I was led and brought forth this awsome news, you know you've heard it time and time again.

It is from God Himself that would not let me sleep to bring this to you, He would not let it be, I mean my brain.

It is 2:30 am at night and I should be sleeping, but the Lord thought more, than for me to rest.

So I shall not deny the Great God I serve, because I love Him to arise and write a message to you at best.

So this I ask to consider the One and Only God that we serve who is humble and asks nothing more.

For I know with Him I can sail the seven seas and abound back to shore.

I miss stuff

Why do I cry? I guess I miss a place that I loved do dear, so why?

My heart aches when I think of times that were spent in the wide and open blue sky.

The hills that captured my heart, the harsh winds of winter, to see the buffalo roam.

Oh does my heart ache to miss all that I have loved for so long that used to be my home.

I hear people say why like that place that is so desolate and plain along with the awful winter?

I just say, "it is Gods Country up there that none can replace and anywhere is an awful splinter".

It was there that I found God again, out there in the loneliness of no where.

Then a friend came to me in my loneliest times, "probably an angel from God", with care.

Guiding me to a family that was with overwhelming love to spare.

Oh did my heart lighten and it lightened some more, with great blessing I saw the great love of God.

From there on out I went to live life with Him and sought Him in pray and Word with so much trod.

Then one day I asked God to make a great decision, I cried out to Him with great despair.

Oh Lord my God I do not want to leave this home that you blessed me with, please answer mine pray.

So as I asked and so He did, to guide and made things known according to His will.

I did not deny Him in this I did as He wanted and left all that I loved oh so much very still.

Now in Arizona a place none compare, to the hot, dry weather that seems a lot.

I carry the Wyoming home in my heart, time to time I try not to forget all that I sought.

Thank you Jesus for all I went through, you've shown me your love to want you more and now got me back.

You sent your angels to minister in the awful desperate times and now I have your precious love that was a lack.

"WOW" My God

Oh Lord my God, you are Great in so many ways, where do I start?

I seen your awsome handy work in a precious babe today.



Oh the innocence of a babe, how we should be, but not innocent in no way.

Within me there is something that sees your precious ones different, as newborns.

I know how you see us now, we are that precious to you on each and every day.

You have no problem loving us in your great love to give, you just give and give.

My Lord how precious are those eyes that sees us in each of us that live.

It is you that has that mighty hand to make us and give us a special gift.

I am a ghast and held back and what you gave within me is something to be a lift.

How precious you are, so much precious than gold and silver.

How great is thou that make the skies and all roar such as the river.



What an abound of Great, Great Love you have given, my spirit longs for more.

You touch my heart like no other, none compare to the Love that plants me to the floor.

Jesus, My Lord God take my hand and guide me and show me your way.

I can't make it with out you Lord, not even another day.

I am so blessed to have you in my heart, my heart you are to stay.

Not even the strongest man can take you away.

My cries

Oh to my Lord how you make me wait, I wait for you and nothing?

I pray to you for the help does not your Word say you are there for me, are you my King?

Help me once again I pray to you that you please answer mine prays.

Am I not doing what you have said I needed to do? Do I need to do more?

Tell me Jesus, what is it that you want me to do? Make haste for my flesh is sore.

I pray again to You Jesus please answer mine prays.

I search your Word and pray to you daily, my soul, my spirit is in need of your rightousness.



Cast my sins away if I have any within me Lord and renew my soul and spirit to your likeness.

Oh Jesus hear my cries Lord, knowing I am nothing with out you. Already showing me life with out you, when I'm astray.

When I call to you Jesus it seems you are far, so far away. A wall is between us, break it down Lord Jesus today.

I pray again to You Jesus please answer mine prays.

I know that you are God, none beside you. You showed me your love and gentle mercies.

Showing your mighty hand in mine life, your grace abound and beyond and where evil flees.

Surely Jesus you've been there and you're still there continuely.

Yes, surely goodness and mercies will and shall follow me all the days of mine life.

My Bright Eyes

I look into my childrens bright brown eyes.

My son and daughter with thier young lives that are going to be as big as the blue skies.

I pray that they are protected and safe where er they go.

I pray that they know who loves them more than I as they grow.

I pray for blessings in thier lives to be rich in love.

For the blessings I pray for, may it come from heaven above.

I only know and I am in comfort that my kids will be sowers for our Lord.

May their young lives make a difference in this old world with beautiful accord.

My children, I gave their lives to God when just babes, this I know stands.

So why should I worry for they are in Gods precious hands.

My letter to Him

Dear Jesus,

Hello, my dear Lord it's me and I'm just dropping in a letter of pray to You to tell You that I am so thankful for all the things that You are doing for me. You have answered all my prays that I've cried to You, I know that there has been times that I had been a bit restless in my life. But You have been so patient with me in the times that I have not with You, You heard my complaints and the anger that came with it.

What a gracious God You are, most merciful in all the areas of my life no matter what I do You stay by my side. Now when You speak I actually hear and listen to You, whereas before I couldn't fathom Your voice. You are truly amazing, I am transformed to a freak for You Jesus, I know people may think I am a weirdo but I don't care what others think of me.

I am so proud to be Your child, thank You for making my dreams come true.......... to be closer to You and making you the light and only light of my life, to put You first above my family.

When I read Your Word You make me see the truth and the evil of this world, Lord I'm all yours. When temptation comes I pray to You for the strength to overcome the tempter, I quote Your Word to help me get through the trials of the life that I'm living.

Now You the Author of my life is writing a new chapter of adventure, please continue to make my life Yours and help me to raise my children according to Your Will. For by only Your Way is better than mine, I've said so many times that I am nothing without You Lord absolutly nothing without You.

Please continue to be with me in the times to come, show mine enemies, my foes that You are the One and only God of this world that You created by your precious Hands.

Love them, for my heart is quick to anger but You are slow to it, bless them because you love as much as You love me. Help me to forgive those that speak bad of me when I try and even when I don't.

Lord take this letter and bless it because I have nothing now accept my heart to give to You. I ask You Jesus all these things, I ask it in Your Holy and precious Name, Name above all Names, Jesus................AMEN.

My heartaches

Oh how does my heart aches, I have half the life with me, she's gone it seems so long.

I cry in dispair for I miss the life that I've had for so long, Oh dear Lord help me be strong.

I know that I am going to see my little one, I know that she is well.

I know that God is taking care of her, but I miss the smiles and the laughs that put me in a spell.

I only look forward to the day that is coming closer, making the life complete.

I have her brother that misses her so, asking day and nite, when we will meet.

Having one of my kids breaks my heart, I'm never satisfied with one, I want both near.

To have my children close to me brings me full of life and so much less fear.

Again I put my children in the Lords Hands for He knows so much better than I will ever know.

For His Precious Blood protects from this world full of hate, may His Blood always be in my babies to flow.

Make haste my little one for the time will always come with love and joy when we meet.

Cause then we will all be the family that God blessed us to be, a family that is complete.

Thankfulness

I am so thankful in my life right now, my life may not be all that it could be.

But my God provides and He taketh away, with this I fear so with love I begin to see.

My blessings that make me the woman I am today and the persons I have met made me the stronger person than they.

Oh how great is our God to see that all will be taken care of according to His will, and I continue to pray.

I believe in my heart that I was made to go the extra mile even when I get tired try'n, but I know that it will pay off at the end with Jesus by my side.

So whom shall I fear with all this know'n within me, I shall not fear nothing with my God near when I have cried.

I am now most thankful of the many blessings that may be small or great, no matter what I shall be thankful in all things that happen.

Thank you Jesus for your love and mercy upon me, even though I am not perfect "you keep o'tappen"

One true One

My weight I can no longer hold
Lord please be by my side, for my life is cold.

I cry out to thee oh Jesus full of love and grace
Make mine paths straight, for I lay before you on my face.

You are the only one, my God, my Lord, oh hear my cries
I look at my heart it is nothing without you for it dies.

Perfect You are, none compares to your Power and Love
Keep me always, send your angels to minister from above.

Jesus my Lord give me strength in this old world of sin
I am weak without you Lord, for you hold me and keep me within.

Your mercy is great I no longer see myself in this world
Your word shows me, even on this mountain I am allured.

Jesus you hear mine cries and know my dispair
You hold me and guide me in mine paths with care.

Thank you Dear Jesus for I'll love you, all the days that I live
For you are the One True God full of mercy and grace to give.

No other but You

Jesus held my hand and sweetly walked with me.

He spoke these words, I know you child I will hold you through the sea.

I know there will be days to come that you will forget me, still I will remind you in the wild.

I won't leave you no matter what, I will hold you when you cry.

I will sit beside you when you sit alone gazing toward the sky.

No matter what, you are in my care. Don't you know that you are inscribed on my palms of mine Hands?

My child I love you more than you will ever know and you will know this in your fears, I Am here.

When I listened to Him I looked toward the heavens and I seen the Love he had told me.

Even now when I stand, Jesus is holding my weak hand in this stormy sea.

Great Love

It makes no difference in my life whether good days or bad, I can handle the strife.

There were days I felt so lonely in this world, but my Father always made Himself known taking my hand in a twirl.

I sit in amaze at His love for me and wonder how He could love the lowly me, to guide me through the raging sea.

Struggling still with my weaknesses He knows the person that I am, with the rivers that rage on my way.

Though Jesus seems to build that needed dam, Jesus, He loves me always all the days that I live.

No matter what I do He is there, always there with mercy and grace at no expense to give.

What a Great God we have, He loves us so much that we are not perfect in no way.

Jesus, the Lion and the Lamb is always knocking at the door and He stays. I'll love Jesus all of my precious days.

Who I seek

My soul yearns and yearns more, I seek but then like a hunter in the wilderness I grow tired and weary. I know what I need to do, feed my soul that is weak and weary, I read the beautiful Words that I carry with me all the time, when the hunger panges come I seek His word.

Oh my soul, my spirit is broken like an eagle that can no longer fly, I want to fly high, high into the big wide open sky. To be happy and strong in the Lord I want to be high and crazy in love with the Lord in my heart. To cry when I hear His Name, to focus and meditate on Him all day long, Him first all the time above even my own family. I am weak without Him, I am not happy without Him, I need Him always to be there for me all the time when I am weak.

Strength He gives me when I have no one at all, I can't live my life without Him. I can't love without Him, He is my stronghold in my times that seems helpless and when I have lost hope in me. Oh my Lord, My God, My Savior I love You with all my heart and all my mind please stay with me all the days of my life. Jesus you are the piece that I always miss in my life.

But You whisper to me sweetly and softly always there behind me when I walk, reminding me that You are always there. You don't condemn me when I use to live a life like Mary Magdeline, you asked who can cast the first stone? Jesus you love me just the way that I am.

My family don't love me like you do Lord Jesus, You are the true God that reigns over the heavens and earth. The universe calls out your precious name, the animals in the wilderness praise You, because You are God, Your are our God. How can I can I say that all is good within me? How can I say that my life is complete and content without you Jesus by my side?

Not I, I am nothing without Him, nothing at all. You see I forgot Him and was lost. Like a little girl holding her dad's hand, then one day I decide to let go and suddenly lost him in the crowd. The little girl looking for her dad in the crowd, she calls out his name but he is no where to be found. She thinks, if I could just find him to hold his hand to feel that comfort that comes from his warm gentle hand, Ill be safe again. It gives me guidance and courage, like the little girl I am not scared holding his hand through all big crowds that I face. The mountatins that I climb he holds me up and helps me with each step, each step I am safe with him. Jesus hold my hand, hold me now for I am weak.

My poetry

I have some blogs of poetry that I wrote awhile back when I lived in Wyoming, my dream home one day again. So I hope that who ever reads enjoys the encouragment that came from God Himself.

I wanted to share with my friends and family of the Blessings that were bestowed upon me. They continue each day when I walk through the door to see their bright young little faces, how very precious the little lives I've been given.

MY BLESSED SEEDS

My kids they are young and small, I know one day soon they will grow tall.

I'm very sure my son will see that height, and my daughter, she will reach it with a fight.

Still she will achieve more than I will ever know, and oh yes my boy he will have a heart of might for his foe.

I am very thankful and proud for my blessings, The Good Lord has placed in my life impossible things.

For I know that all things are possible with the Lord, but how would have I known that He made beautiful music with accord.

I know now my life is complete from here on out, because I have precious seeds that will go about.